I don’t have a huge following, but I know sometimes people come across my blog while looking for more information on Druidry and Paganism as a practice they are interested in. This post is for those looking to find their Path but have become discouraged because they haven’t been able to enter a trance state or had visions of some Deity.
To be honest, I haven’t done these things either, yet I’m almost done with the basic training of ADF.
Paganism and Druidry aren’t just about having ecstatic visionary experiences while in trance. There are many, many more aspects to these Paths, like simply experiencing ritual and cultivating a regular (not necessarily daily) practice of some sort.
When I first started ADF, everyone was talking about Patrons and I felt like I wasn’t a good enough Pagan since I had been practicing for a while and hadn’t found one yet. Occasionally I get into conversations in chats about trance journeying, and I feel left out because I end up spectating instead of talking.
I don’t know much about trance, and I’ve never had a vision of Freyja, my Lady. She doesn’t come to me in dreams or appear before me during ritual. Yet I know She is listening. (That is where faith comes in to Paganism.) I simply trust She is guiding and protecting me based on my prayers and offerings.
I guess I’m just trying to tell everyone that you’re not a bad Pagan if you can’t seem to meditate for 30 minutes every day or don’t understand what the Deities are telling you. I definitely don’t meditate for 30 minutes every day; it’s more like 2 minutes for a quick grounding. (This grounding is done by simply feeling; there is no long, drawn-out visualization because I am too impatient for that.) Often I don’t understand what Deities (or Ancestors and Nature Spirits) are telling me immediately, but They persist until I do (fortunately)!
If you get discouraged, remember that you don’t have to know how to do everything at this stage. We all learn at our own individual pace. If Paganism is something that is truly for you, you will learn your own ways of keeping a regular practice and communing with the Deities. Learning these things will take time.
Many blessings, Victoria