After some discussion with my husband about my Path and the fact that I feel so down about it a lot of the time, I’ve come to an important realization:
I am eternally indecisive.
I’ve known this for a long, long time, but it finally hit me that this applies to me spiritually as well. I honestly don’t feel much of a kinship with Norse deities other than Sunna and Freyja. When I worshiped the Hellenic pantheon, I didn’t feel much of a connection there either, except perhaps to Mnemosyne, Goddess of Memory. (I have been thinking of taking up worship of her again.) What little I know about the Celtic, Roman, and Vedic pantheons doesn’t resonate with me either, though more research is perhaps needed there to make sure.
Craig pointed out that in the ancient world, deities from different regions were often worshiped side-by-side, like Isis in the case of the Romans. Also, the peasants didn’t necessarily know everything about the lore that modern Pagans do. He pointed out that there is no need for me to memorize the Eddas or the Homeric Hymns to be “a good Pagan.” I am not much different than the average peasant in those days, and I need to come to terms with that.
I am currently waiting on some books I ordered. One is DruidCraft by Phillip Carr Gomm, which is a synthesis of Druidry and Wicca. The other books I ordered are about Traditional Witchcraft, a path I am interested in exploring further. I think tying myself down to one tradition does not suit me well, and I shouldn’t hesitate to learn and grow within other traditions, such as witchcraft.
I have never been one set in her ways. I go to sleep, wake up, get coffee, and have three meals a day. Those are about the only consistent things for me, besides doing those things with my husband. I don’t even manage to brush my teeth everyday, and a daily, full-time job just does not suit me. Now I’m realizing that it’s okay to extend this approach to my spirituality. 🙂
Blessings, Victoria ❤