Devotional was late again today. I did another transcript for the Druids in Cars, Going to Festivals podcast and then I didn’t feel good for a good while after that. I finally felt good enough to do devotional, so I cleaned out my incense burner, lit some charcoal, lit my candles, and sat down.
I tried to let the scent of each offering fill me after I placed it on the charcoal to create a deeper link to each Kindred and Freyja. I named the Kindreds as usual, though I omitted some Ancestors due to my anxiety when my husband is in the room. My prayer to Freyja was filled with as much joy as I could muster, though I still wasn’t feeling that great (a holdover from earlier).
After I shuffled my Wychwood Oracle deck for the third time, a couple cards fell face down onto the floor. I picked them up without revealing them and placed them on top of my deck. The top card ended up being the Moon, reversed:
In the reversed position, the Moon says that you are trapped in a cycle, unfulfilled, and/or influenced by others. This is exactly how I was feeling after I finished the transcript. I was feeling unfulfilled and letting others’ spiritual practices influence how mine should look. I often get trapped in this cycle of feeling connected spiritually for a while, then I get upset and no longer feel connected to anything. So, it seems like the Moon is a reflection of this period of time. It could also be telling me that I need to somehow get out of this cycle and worry about my own spiritual practice instead of those of others, which is something I have struggled with for a long time.